Tired

I'm just getting so angry all over again. I'm stuck feeling not good enough for anyone and fucking everything up. I just want out; why is that so much to ask? I don't even want to be here anymore. My head hurts all the time but not near as much as my heart. I want to quit. I just want this to be over. I don't know how to handle any of this. I want to cry, but crying makes my head hurt more. I want to stay away from Jay, I want to be closer to her, I want to just die, but more than anything, I want to stop hurting. It just seems like the only way to stop hurting right now is to die. I'm just so tired of everything - the lies, the pain, the bullshit.